​This Is What It Means To Go Insane Playing A Video Game

Over the weekend I had two gaming goals. Finish Dark Souls II and finish Trials Fusion. Lofty goals. Unbeknownst to me, as I was just about to finish the final obstacle on the final track of Trials Fusion, Kotaku Tech Man Ben White began filming me on his mobile phone. This is an insight into many things: my mental fortitude, the craziness that can occur in my home, and how bloody difficult Trials Fusion is. If you ever wanted to watch a man teeter precariously on the edge of a mental breakdown, this is the video for you.


Just a little background…

On Saturday, I had a bunch of my family over for lunch. This means:

– Three kids aged three or under making a buttload of noise.
– Loads of people watching me and wanting me to stop playing this stupid game.
– My wife thinking it's 'hilarious' to totally give me crap through the whole thing! (She's the one constantly telling me how much I suck. That's love, people.)

Some more background: this track is bloody tough. I've restarted it a bunch of times. This was the first time I had gotten to the last obstacle and the pressure was on, to the point where I actually paused the game and tried to gather myself, as you'll see in the video.

Ben, my work mate and brother in-law (it's a long story) is the only one who understands. I honestly had no idea he was filming this until after the fact. Neither did my wife: this is just the kind of heckling I have to deal with when I'm playing games at home! Ben just thought it was hilarious that I was trying to do this extremely difficult thing, that required pitch perfect precision, with kids and family going crazy in the background.

If you watch closely, you can pinpoint the precise moment when my heart shatters into a million tiny fragments.

This post originally on Kotaku Australia, where Mark Serrels is the Editor. You can follow him on Twitter if you're into that sort of thing.



See, this is why I don't play games like this, nor do I usually play any game on a difficulty higher than easy. The exception to that is sports games because I feel like the struggle is part of the fun (my player is supposed to suck in the beginning).

Games like Fallout, Mass Effect, you name it, I'm not going to suffer through the struggle. I don't want to fight my way through tough bosses, endless hours of upgrades, and worst of all, doing something over again. I want to enjoy the story, relax on my couch, and not worry about whether or not I can beat the game in a timely manner. I know people, maybe most people, are the exact opposite and I'm okay with that.

If the game gets stressful I'm going to quit, I have way too many stressful things going on in my life to also be stressed playing a video game.