Popular PUBG streamer Guy Beahm, aka Dr Disrespect, said on a Twitch stream today that he has been “unfaithful” to his wife and will consequently be “taking some time away” from streaming.

Beahm, who has 1.4 million Twitch followers, was awarded the Trending Gamer award at the Video Game Awards last week in Los Angeles.

“I’m going to take some time off to focus on stupid fuckin’ mistakes,” Beahm said, visibly in tears, in the message, which was delivered out of character. “I’m going to take time off to focus on my family.”

You can watch Beahm’s full statement below.